Happy Friday and welcome back to My Mountain. I’ve always been of awe of single parents but Ella’s post last week really captured how it can feel, thanks so much for everyone’s lovely comments. This week’s parenting struggle is from Kamsin and I can definitely relate.
When I first came to Japan in 2001, with the intention of staying for a year, I had no idea that one day I would be giving birth and raising a son here. And yet, that it what I find myself doing.
I left England to teach EFL in China in 1999 and since then I have spent more time outside of my home country than in it. I have taught in Japan, Indonesia, Bosnia, and Canterbury (the most exotic location, obviously;-p) In 2008 I came to Japan for a second time. A dream teaching job brought me here, but I started seeing a Japanese man who I’d met in the UK. He had just moved back to Tokyo and became my guide to, well everything really.
In March 2011, just after the earthquake and tsunami rocked northern Japan we got married. Three years later we had a son. Being a new parent is not short on challenges. Doing it in a foreign country, far from my family adds a whole new layer to those challenges. And finding English speaking mum friends has been a big struggle for me.
But more than language and culture, which will probably always be a struggle, it is parenting itself which is the biggest challenge for me.
I loved most of my son’s first year. Yes, there were more sleepless nights than not and the struggle to get anything done was real. He was demanding and wanted to be with me all the time. But, he was also pure delight. The biggest smile. The sweetest boy. And he is still those things but…At around a week after his first birthday he started walking.
His technique was to pull himself up to standing using the furniture, stick his arms out to catch him should he fall, then put one foot in front of the other as fast as possible until he fell down. He’d only manage two or three steps at first, but it proved a successful strategy. Then almost as soon as he could walk he got to work on running, and jumping and climbing stairs and anything else available to climb.
He is constantly covered in bumps and bruises and I am exhausted. Along with the ability to go where he wants, when he wants, at the speed he wants, his sense of curiosity and adventure know no bounds.
He is unstoppable. Convincing him to slow down enough to sleep is a daily battle. I’m pretty sure he thinks we’re going to have a party the moment he closes his eyes. He is strong willed and contradicts me on principle. Me: “You’re so tired you can hardly stand up.” Him: “No, no, no, nooooo.”
Did I mention I am exhausted? He does sleep eventually, but not until after countless hugs, water, more water, songs, saying bye bye to the “mon-ter” and endless wriggling around. And trust me I do not need a better routine or more consistent limits. I’m all over that stuff, I’m pretty sure he would walk all over me if I weren’t.
His strong personality and boundless energy leave me exhausted. But it has also forced me to find techniques to keep him safe, and prevent constant battles over everything. While he was still a baby the focus was on practical details, I just had to make sure his needs for food, comfort and love were met. Now he’s a little person I actually have to learn how to parent.
I learnt very quickly that I needed to set boundaries and stick to them. Any little deviation and he’s taking full advantage to try and get his way. I let him think he’s winning sometimes too, because I’m not actually a dictator;-P A few extra raisins every now and then won’t hurt.
But my survival requires strategies to try to prevent tantrums and techniques to deal with them when they do occur. And sleep, if only we could all have more sleep.
And it turns out this stuff can be quite hard. Which boundaries, and the best parenting techniques are not obvious. Well, it’s obvious when it’s a matter of safety. But when it’s more about day to day routine then there are choices to be made.
I’m used to being flexible and adapting to each situation, I don’t do well with routines. But a child, especially a strong willed one, needs stability, and predictable rhythms in their day. Finding that balance has been a struggle.
Now he’s approaching two and adding words and sentences to his vocabulary every day, it’s starting to be fun again. He says funny little things and it’s exciting to watch him learn not just one but two languages.
Although two is traditionally the time of terribleness, to me it feels like being able to communicate is making things easier. Perhaps my skills as an English language teacher are helping me here. I’m really good at guessing what people who only know a few words are trying to say. The fact that he understands what I am saying is a breath of fresh air!
A few months ago he’d have cried and whined during the 10 minute train ride to our nearest city, for example. Now I can tell him: “Yes, I know you want a snack but we’ll get off soon and then have lunch. OK?” And he watches out the window, or we sing a song or two. When we reach our stop he excitedly yells: “Off! Off!! Alright! Alright!” Which is a big improvement on crying no matter what I did (snacks helped).
I think everyone struggles at a different point in early motherhood. Some people find a newborn overwhelming. For me it was having an active walker, who hadn’t yet learnt any sense of danger and with whom I couldn’t communicate effectively. Although I feel things have settled for now, no doubt new challenges will come along again soon.
But we all get through it. And that old saying “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” is definitely apt. Two may indeed turn out to be terrible, but now it’s just weeks away, I’m no longer dreading it. The last year was a battle. But I’ve got this.
Kamsin blogs about motherhood, writing and life in Japan at Life In The Key Of E. Follow her on Twitter or Instagram.
As you say, everyone has their hard stages. I was like you and found 8 – 18 months when they were on the move but not understanding No the hardest. Oh and the teen years have their moments too. #KCACOLS
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Thanks for your comment. No doubt I have a lot to look forward to in the teen years!
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Seems to be good and bad at all stages. Thanks for commenting x
I found an active walker trouble too – as soon as they would just dash off i found it so hard. its all relative! Thanks so much of linking up to #KCACOLS hope to see you there again next week
Thanks for your comments x
It sure is relative. Thanks for your comment.
It is indeed all relative. Now I just have to face a his constant “no no no” but I can cope with that better than constantly running after him.
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What a lovely post. Mother can’t wait for me to get walking but people warn her that’s when the trouble starts 😉 the newborn weeks were tough for her but the biggest struggle has been around my eczema. By the way, how cool that your baby is learning two languages #bigpinklink
It’s awesome, isn’t it? Thanks so much for responding to Kamsin’s post x
Eczema is a big struggle. I still suffer as an adult, no fun. And yes, it seems everyone is keen for their little one to walk but once their mobile, there’s no going back! Lol.
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I have eczema. It must be horrible to see a little one suffer. And yes, it’s hard living so far from home and missing out on family time but being raised in two languages is definitely a big plus for my boy.
kamsin recently posted…Now my toddler is two he can watch all the TV he wants
This is such a wonderful post!
My son is just beginning to walk, and he is into EVERYTHING! It truly is exhausting chasing them around all day long especially when, like you said, they can’t understand a thing you’re saying! Here’s to hoping the two’s are terrific for you! (: #KCACOLS
Thanks for your lovely, supportive words for Kamsin x
Thank you! And good luck with your little one.
kamsin recently posted…Now my toddler is two he can watch all the TV he wants
I found 12-24 months difficult with Monkey for the same reason, your right as soon as you can communicate it definitely becomes easier. Now coming up to 4 he still has his moments but then I know that whatever it is in life he wants to achieve he will manage it and I am determined that it doesn’t get squashed out of him. You totally have this!! 🙂 #MarvMondays
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A brilliant positive spin! Thanks for commenting on Kamsin’s brill post x
So true than a strong, determined child can achieve so much. I also want to do my best to encourage him not let his strong will be broken….I’m still really tired though. Lol.
kamsin recently posted…Now my toddler is two he can watch all the TV he wants
Such a good post, I found myself nodding along in agreement… Mine has just turned 2 and I would very much agree that life has gotten a lot easier since he can communicate… He will now drag me into the kitchen and ask for ‘toast’ or ‘water’ or whatever he needs… ‘Bed’ ‘medicine’! I’m sure our next parenting challenge isn’t far away! #KCACOLS
One phase after another eh? Thanks for reading x
Yes, it is much easier when they can say what they want. Although today I keep hearing the words “not yet”. “No home yet”, “no bath yet”. But in the long run it is a good thing he has strong opinions. Or something. Lol.
kamsin recently posted…Now my toddler is two he can watch all the TV he wants
I can definitely relate to this – my 16m old is incredibly strong willed and always has been. He hardly sleeps and is always on the go, it can be so draining and like you I don’t have people around me to help out. I tell myself it will be a good thing when he’s older- as long as he knows the boundaries and I show him about kindness and being gentle in spite of his energy! #KCACOLS
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I guess you just have to focus on the positives like you say. Thanks for reading Kamsin’s fab post x
Yes! Boundaries and kindness. My hope is that working hard on that now, to maintain his trust will help make things easier as he grows. …I’m pretty strong willed too, I just need to remember not to allow things to become a power struggle and it all goes much smoother.
kamsin recently posted…Now my toddler is two he can watch all the TV he wants
Your son sounds very much like mine. Always busy, running, jumping, screaming etc. My son is 5 now and he still does all of these things but we’ve learned to embrace his energy and personality. We keep him busy, get him enrolled in sports programs and have figured out some quieter ways to spend his time (drawing and coloring are two things he loves to do). His enthusiasm is wonderful and he shows us how to look at life with curiosity and exuberance. #KCACOLS
It’s wonderful that you’ve completely embraced his energy, thanks for reading Kamsin’s post 🙂
My son is starting to show a real interest in drawing, so here’s hoping we’ll have that to help calm him down. But definitely sports as he grows. We just bought a small jungle gym and it is so great for keeping him busy while I do housework. And yes, I too am learning so much about having an exuberance for life. I reckon my son will be unstoppable as an adult, I may be biased though.
kamsin recently posted…Now my toddler is two he can watch all the TV he wants
Mine was so strong willed at that age, and it did get a bit better when he started talking, then it took a turn all over again at 3, I loved 2 but 3 oh my!!! #KCACOLS
No! Don’t tell me that! I’m totally going to pretend it was just get easier from here on in. I refuse to listen to anyone who says it might get harder again. Lol.
kamsin recently posted…Now my toddler is two he can watch all the TV he wants
It’s true what you have said that everyone struggles with the different ages/stages. With my children, they were so different and I struggled with different stages with each child. But walking, no running…yes, that’s been pretty scary. One look away and they can take off so fast. The talking can be quite scary as well as sometimes you don’t know what they’re going to say at the most inappropriate moments. Thanks for linking with #bigpinklink and good luck for the next year! Nice to get to know you a little better.
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Thanks for your comment. I’m just waiting for my son to be fluent enough to blurt out something totally inappropriate. At the moment he speaks mostly English so many Japanese mums don’t understand anyway! But oh my, I just know he is going to show me up one of these days by something he says.
kamsin recently posted…Now my toddler is two he can watch all the TV he wants
Wonderful post, sounds like a lot of hard work at times but I’m sure it’s worth it 🙂
#kcacols
Thank you!
Love this post and you totally got this! Mine are now teenagers and you are so right, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Besides, love truly gets you through the rough days. #KCACOLS
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Thanks so much for your supportive words for Kamsin x
Thank you! Your encouragement means so much.
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I can really relate to this post. I love what you say about actually learning how to parent now that your little one is a toddler and has his own personality and will. I hadnt thought about it like that before, but it is very true. I found the newborn stage and the first year relatively easy, despite the obvious sleep challenges etc. But it is only in the last year (my daughter is two) that I’ve found parenting quite challenging and having read your post and reflected on it, it all makes perfect sense. Its nice to know that other parents face similar challenges, thanks for sharing this. Another great guest post linked up to #MarvMondays. Emily
Thanks so much for your comment. The last year has been a real challenge. For lots more reasons than I could write here. But it is always good to hear other people have similar experiences.
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I love how this series of posts has allowed so many moms to share their struggles. I relate with you Kamsin, but they grow up soo fast, so sometimes it encourages me to embrace the moments.
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