Weeding
We hate our garden. Before we moved here and had Caterpillar we lived in a flat with no garden and were so looking forward to having outside space. The large and mature garden in our…
The beautiful mundane
When I’m struggling with Anxiety I have no energy, no inclination and no mental capacity for dealing with the everyday stuff. If my husband asks me to pay a bill or call a company about…
Getting the most out of therapy
In an unthinkable world where I’m made to choose between therapy and medication I’d choose therapy every time (but, my God, please never make me choose – I’m greedy and want both!). Medication has limitations…
The battle for acceptance
It’s truly ironic that I blog about depression and advocate on social media to break mental health stigma and yet when it comes to accepting my own battle with PND and anxiety I still have…
Do I love my baby?
Yesterday we had the paddling pool out for the first time. Caterpillar had a lot of fun and then wanted to come and sit with me where I was watching from the picnic blanket. I…
What if this bad thing…is a good thing?
I’ve spent the last six weeks utterly devastated that I’ve had such a nasty anxiety flare-up. I’m bitter and angry and frightened and grieving, there’s no doubt about that. BUT. Big “but”- capital letters “but,”…
The Benefits of Routine
I’ve always been a bit of a planner. Organising others is actually my day job. And I truly believe that a good routine is really helpful when battling PND, and for motherhood in general. When…
Positive vs negative
Positivity is so powerful. I guess that’s pretty obvious really but, in truth, it wasn’t the biggest part of my recovery first time around. Thanks to a fabulous new therapist, who focuses beautifully on the…
Setback
I started this blog as someone who considered herself to be recovered, or mostly recovered (depending on the day!) in order to offer hope to others in the thick of PND. I hope I can…
Derealisation: Locked out of my Life
My experience of postnatal depression was largely rooted in intense anxiety. This is the third of three posts about the worst of my anxiety-induced symptoms (insomnia, intrusive thoughts and derealisation/depersonalisation) and how I managed or overcame each of them. …