Anxiety Cheat Sheet

Last week on #pndhour we discussed the ups and downs of recovery from Perinatal Mental Illness. One of the most frustrating things about getting better is that just when you think you’re making lots of progress and starting to get somewhere you can be slammed by a setback which leaves you terrified that you’re back to square one. 

The truth is you aren’t back to square one and you never will be. It’s not possible to be, save for a bout of amnesia, because you’ve learnt so much already about how to cope and how to manage your anxiety. 

In fact, in the book that really helped me (that I’ve mentioned many times!) – Paul David’s Anxiety No More – he tells us to actually welcome those setbacks as they are a chance for you to practice what you’ve learned. Although I’m not sure “welcoming” them is a particularly helpful phrase, I certainly agree that finding a way to accept them and reminding yourself that you will learn from the setback and come out stronger on the other side, and closer to wellness, is really helpful. 

Anxiety is a liar. Or, at the very least, a distorter of truth. When you begin to feel better you are quite easily able to see the irrational fears and thoughts for what they are and are able to begin countering them with facts. However, when you’re hit with a setback you become vulnerable once more, you can start to believe in Anxiety’s lies again – e.g. “I hate being a mum”, “I’m a bad parent”, “I can’t cope”, “I’ll never get better” etc. 

To counter this I used writing a great deal. I’ve mentioned previously about the dozens of scrawled notebooks I still have stuffed in a cupboard from the beginning of my breakdown in 2013, where I would write desperate affirmations over and over – “You will get better”, “You’re not insane”, “You won’t hurt your baby” and so on. During those acute early stages this didn’t help a great deal, except to bring me temporary comfort and to help me pass the dreadful long hours anxiety brings, but as I became a little calmer this technique became invaluable. Once I began to have moments of relief from the anxiety (at first only a few minutes at a time and eventually weeks at a time between setbacks) I reached straight for those notebooks and wrote exactly how I felt in that moment. Here’s an example I dug out and paraphrased:

“It’s 10am and Caterpillar is lying in front of me on his changing mat playing with Sophie Giraffe. He smiles at me and I’m able to smile back. I feel relief and peace for the first time in a long time and I almost believe this horrible time will be over soon. I don’t hate being a mum right now.”

Half an hour later I was back to constant panic, and all the dreadful symptoms that accompany it, but that piece of paper was hard proof that I had had a moment that day when I felt calm. I dragged that note, and others like it, around with me for weeks to bring me comfort every time the anxiety threatened to overwhelm me. 

Often we feel like two people when we have anxiety; the panic-filled, fidgeting person who nobody is able to comfort and the calm, rational person who begins to make brief appearances during moments between anxiety attacks. If we can give the calm version of ourselves a voice that can be heard even during a later attack we can start to build our confidence about defeating anxiety. Which is the key really – confidence that we can handle this – anxiety attacks, motherhood and life. 

Eventually, the scrawled notes I carried around became a Notes doc in my phone of what I call my Anxiety Cheat Sheet. It’s a collection of everything I need to read, hear and do to manage a setback or anxiety attack should it rise up again. Simply having something like this close to you can make you feel calmer and perhaps prevent an attack. 

Everyone’s needs are different of course and we all find relief in different things so below I’ve put together a printable you can use to build your own Anxiety Cheat Sheet.

Anxiety Cheat Sheet Printable

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The idea behind this sheet is that you fill it in when you’re feeling a little better and then you have something to refer back to during the recovery setbacks that will build your confidence in your recovery and bring you relief from the anxiety.  The cheat sheet should be slowly build up over time, adding new evidence of your recovery and new self-care and comforting items as you discover them. 

Disclaimer: I am definitely not a CBT therapist (or any other kind!), this is just a technique that I found really helped me personally. If possible and available, I highly recommend finding a therapist who helps you to counter your irrational or negative thinking under professional guidance. 


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